Showing posts with label wordy wednesday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label wordy wednesday. Show all posts

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Wordy Wednesday: Extreme Anxiety and Social Awkwardness, Both Online AND Off (Pt. 2)

Might I just start off by saying that my anxiety is sky-high just from writing this post?

Okay... trying to figure out how to even properly start this. I've wanted to write something like this for a while, but especially lately, it's becoming more and more relevant.

As much as I'm totally completely utterly extremely grateful for all the support I've been getting (both emotionally/mentally and financially), I've gotten to the breaking point where I'm so overwhelmed with it all that all I can do is curl up in a ball and either stare at the wall, stare at the TV but not know what show I'm watching, or attempt to sleep (sometimes I sleep WAY too much, and sometimes I can't sleep at all). I think this is from a mix of my normal physical (and emotional/mental) exhaustion of living with EDS+ and the additional pressures of replying to many many messages/comments/emails either wishing me well or asking me for advice and help.

And I feel like an utterly horrible person for often doing anything possible to not have to respond (at least for a good while).

These people have either taken time to send me beautiful messages of encouragement and/or message me because they think highly enough of me to seek advice and help with their own fight with EDS+. The very LEAST I can do is reach out and thank and/or help them.

And honestly, I usually do. And I LOVE doing it. But there's many times when it takes me FOREVER to do, if I do so at all.

What kind of terrible person AM I?!?!?!?

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Wordy Wednesday: Why I Hate Many Specialists/Explaining What POTS *Really* is

I'm going to lose it one of these days.
I posted a picture for Wordless Wednesday this morning, but then something happened that requires MANY words.

Today's specialist appointment.

In my (fairly vast) experience, specialist appointments are either amazing or horrible.

Today's was HORRIBLE.

Disclaimer: before I start ranting, know that I'm talking about the BAD specialists. Yes, there are amazing specialists - I've seen a few of them myself! So don't think I'm saying that all specialists are bad. I'm just focusing on the bad ones right now. Okay? Okay.

I'm just so completely sick of arrogant specialists.

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